Betrayal. How much is too much?

How do you get up from an all time low.

I usually forgive easily. I don't hold grudges and even if it is that kind of situation when i actually do, it usually doesn't last more than, probably a week. But your situation here is.. how do i say, i'm tired to care already.

I hate feeling betrayed. And you made me feel like that. Not once, not twice, but numerous times. I deleted you from my life, in effort to avoid feeling that feeling again. I don't wanna go through the forgive -> friends -> trashtalk -> bitch war -> silent treatment process again. So yes, i'm avoiding you. Your presence brings such a discomfort for me. Everybody's talking to you and i'm not. It's awkward.

But i prefer it that way.

Because the way i see it, you're not going to change anytime soon. In fact, it'll grow worse. Some might see it as overreacting, but i feel comfortable this way. I hate trashtalking, and if i were to continue w you, i'll trashtalk a lot.

Thanks for the memories.