The Usuals

I'm Still Alive

Takeaway Truth

Time is ticking..

Less than a month to finals. I don't wanna get kicked out from this place. I wanna leave so badly but that's just not right. I have to finish what I have started. Honestly I don't know if I made the right decision entering here, taking up this course. This morning I was reading CLEO. They usually have this section at the last page showing behind the scenes photos, editors working on their projects to put in the mag and thought this is what I wanted to do. I figured that out many years ago. But frankly speaking I had zero confidence in pursuing journalism. Passion is there, never have I questioned my passion in doing that but my skills.. mehhh.. it is still far from reach.

Lets get this thought out. I miss home. There's nothing much to say other than that. I just miss everything about KK. 

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Sigh. 

Us

A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.

STRIVE

New timetable since the degree people have come flooding in. Now we have night class........which isn't a bad idea for me as long as I have a pretty long gap before, but noooo! Tskk. This is only applicable for two weeks, so it's not really that bothering.

Return

Back after 3 months!

The desire to write has always been there but time is not on my side. Tomorrow marks the third month of me being here in this ghost town called Puncak Alam. Time passes so fast, too fast. It's already the third month. So much have happened since then, and I shall post some entries when I have the time to do so.

In the meantime let me just break it down, life has been treating me.. I don't know. I don't really like it here. The desire to go home is always there, every day, every time. I don't know if it's just me or the surrounding here but it's just so foreign to me. To the point until I felt like quitting this foundation program but we all know that's not possible. And to my surprise, I have developed this mad ridic home sick problem. Funny, cause I was the only who always wanted to get away from home.

I have got myself some new friends. The Usuals we call ourselves *chuckles*

Well, that is if you can call them new. We might not be blood-related but we are somehow related with each other, socially. Naf and Azu are classmates and from the same circle of friends, and both of them are my ex-primary schoolmates. Dawn and Jose are classmates while Maroline and I have been close friends for 5 years. And all of us have mutual friends. I don't know.. it's like it's meant to be.

Geng Berahi; 2007-?

What seemed to be a long wait now is finally coming. I'll leave the day after tomorrow, didn't see that coming at all. Wow. Izzat has already left for Johor this afternoon, and Maroline will leave tomorrow, I'll follow the next day. But of course I'll see Maroline often since we're going to the same campus ;D I guess we didn't feel it before, the feeling of parting maybe because it hasn't really kicked in our minds yet. But really, a few days before today I, and I'm quite sure they too, felt some sense of sadness and started to treasure more of our times left together here in KK.

The biggest scumbag that has ever existed on earth, Madir

So we went out and spent some times together just.. fooling around. Seriously, for these past few years of high school, thanks to my nature of being socially awkward and not having lots of friends, they are the only ones I have. Of course I have some but not as close as these guys. I'll just let photos do the talking now ;DDDDDD

Iffa and moi

Maroline, Izzat and scumbag Madir

Last dinner before leaving @ Secret Recipe. Thanks Afiq for being a great waiter/friend to help take the photo!

Last day of seeing each other. Fooled around in the pool, all of us got a tone darker, yuck!

Sai and Dina missing, both are already enrolled in Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan. GENG BERAHI FOR LIFE LOL!

Hope everyone can make it home for Raya which is around two months from now. Except for Madir who'll be studying in Australia and won't be home. Hell, he studied in Australia since Form 4 and the fact that he's in Malaysia for a few months this year was already great. Thanks Madir for being the greatest scumbag.. I don't know when will I get to see you again. Sai and Dina, I know Labuan might not be as fancy but never lose sight and focus on the reason you guys are there. As for Izzat, you probably have arrived in Johor about now, not quite sure how far Johor from Selangor is but if we have time lets idk go on a road trip? Iffa please take care of KK for us and keep us updated with all KK related, after all here is where my heart is. And lastly Maroline.. lets have an awesome time in UiTM Puncak Alam!!!!! Love you guys to bits <3333333

Another college talk

MAY 21, KST 12:50AM

11 days till I fly to KL and leave KK. I am excited and anxious. I'm so jealous of most of my friends who's going to start their orientation tomorrow. I can't wait to start already, being confined in this house is boring and what's worse is 3rd of July seems months away. I am aware that this excitement is temporary, that after I actually enroll in I'd dread everything but I am allowed to be excited ok? It's my first time and this, by far in my 18 years of living is the biggest event of my life (which will change when I get to see Bigbang in person waaaahhh). At first I was a little down knowing I'm the only one going there but I found some acquaintances that will be going there too, there's five of us and we're already planning to be housemates and I'm so excited! Maroline's going too!!

I haven't started any preparation yet. It has been decided that I will only start shopping for everything at the end of the month which is like 3-4 days before registration? Yeah, I am now sure that I inherited my astounding procrastination gene from my parents. Kid you not, if I did not remind them to book our plane tickets and look for accomodation in KL/Shah Alam, they wouldn't have started until the very last minute. Sometimes things go well, but this time I just can't afford to manage things like that. If things go wrong, crossing the sea to Sabah and Selangor won't be convenient.

It's KST 2:21AM now lol I did not take hours to type this, I just went to other sites looking for things. Too caught up with Tumblr nowadays lol no 3 YEARS ALREADY who am I kidding. If any of you have one please lets be tumblrmates, mine is tabi-boo.tumblr.com

Sorry all my posts seem to revolve around college talk well I can't help it that is possibly the only thing I'm excited about apart from Bigbang and seeing Tabi and scream at my monitor. Till then xx

D-Day; Jay Park KK Fan Meet

Before anything, THIS IS MY FIRST FAN ACCOUNT sdfgkdjhgfgjkfldsskjhdgfdhskaloiuytbnm!!!!!

*slaps myself* Okay, ready to go.

Although I lost my enthusiasm few days before the fan meet, on the D-Day I got excited at the thought of seeing him in person again! I was supposed to go with Anwar because frankly none of my close friends are really passionate about k-pop the way Anwar and I do, although, 80% of Anwar's kpop knowledge revolves around SNSD tsk tsk. But on a last minute note I managed to get a pass for Iffa so I dragged her along, which was apparently a smart move by me because I was separated from Anwar as our passes are different and he got to stand nearer to the stage.

The event was supposed to start at 7PM but by 5PM the crowd has gathered and lined up. Iffa and I got confused as to where to line up since there were different lines but later somehow got ourselves in. We were kinda early so there wasn't many people yet. Since our pass are no fancy ones we were only allowed to go to the standing area but since we're early, we were the most front of the sad standing crowd, which was just behind the crowds who got the autograph pass. I've got a clear view since we were not that far from the stage. And Max, my friend happen to stand next to me.

The event started around 7PM with a game conducted by Hitz KK crews. They were giving out posters to the fans that can answer questions about Jay correctly. The girl next to me got a poster by looking up answers on Wiki using her smartphone, lol. And Jinny from Hitz was there!!! It's his first time in KK and he's like the cutest thing on earth and kept throwing random remarks to random people in the crowd. He took a video of us screaming and going bananas waiting for Jay to come out lol

Try to spot Iffa and I har har har kidding we're far behind. There's a loooot of people far behind, don't be tricked by this video, tsk.

Okay probably around this time I was pissed by a fucked up girl who pushed her way to the front. I was shoulder to shoulder with Max and she pushed in between us that when I turned around (which was almost impossible to do because it was THAT crowded), Max was far behind. BITCH. We got a nice spot because we came early, have some sense of respect please lah woman. I kept glaring at her but she kept her poker face oh goodness felt like pulling her hair off her head.

On a happier note, Jin went down to our section to search for fans to dance to Jay Park's song. And I remember Max tweeted the night before that he wanted to dance with him, and he's always posting dance covers of kpop idols so I got excited and pointed at him, so did his friends when Jin was looking and he got chosen! There were five fans on stage and they danced to Know Your Name and Jay was on stage looking at them (gosh I have never wanted to be Max so badly lol). In the end, by crowd's favor (that's mostly us fangirling Max for a moment and screamed our lungs out), Max won the dance battle! So happy for him and super jealous at the same time, he even bro-fisted Jay hahahah I think I'd die if I were to have skinship with Jay. Here's a video of the dance battle (just a part of it)

The rest of the fan meet went well after the girl who pushed her way through disappeared which resulted in me taking her place on the railing. Screamed our lungs out with Iffa (and hundreds of Jay Walkers). Jay performed some of his hit songs, Know Your Name, Nothing On You cover, Girlfriend etc. Too bad he didn't perform Abandoned because that's my favorite from him but that track is from another album and since this is a New Breed showcase it only makes sense that he sings tracks from New Breed album lol. This is already getting too long so in conclusion, it might not be the most grand fan meet but Jay Park was there and that's all that mattered. The only complain I had was him not taking his shirt off (heheh). Thank you Jay for even coming to our humble town of KK, you being the first kpop idol to hold an official showcase here mean a lot to us! :D

Now playing..

Ulala Session ft PSY- Beautiful Night

This is my most recent favorite song. It's by Ulala Session, the winner of Superstar K3 which is an audition survival program in South Korea. I gotta say, these boys sure deserve their title! This is their debut song after winning and I can't ask anything more than this because this is so Ulala Session. The female lead in this video is Park Han Byul, 10 years girlfriend of Se7en (yay YG family!) and she's also a well established actress on her own. PSY also did a featuring in this although he is nowhere to be seen in this music video (double yay for another YG family member!). These boys are like PSY times four! I had Anwar to listen to this but his response was lukewarm gosh am I the only one who's obsessed with this song? Ulala Session is so underrated. Be sure to check fellow Superstar K3 contestant Busker Busker who debuted a little earlier than these boys.

Youngbae turning 24 in five days!

Late night rant

I would be lying if I say I'm not worried about our future together. We're all scattered around Malaysia for college. For the past five years of my life, we were always together, sticking to each other like a glue. Tuition, outings, co-curriculum clubs, even part-time workplace after we left school, we were always doing things together. So for the first time in my life we'll be apart and I can't help but feel helpless and sad. I hope we'll still be able to maintain a good friendship while working hard to get closer to a better future. Wuv you guys (Sai and Dina missing but I'll be sure to find a photo where all 5 of us are in!)

Iffa and I. The only friend I could spazz all things Bigbang and kpop stuffs with, because I got her hooked too kekekeke 

As i enter another phase in life

I got admitted to UiTM's Foundation in Science program! Although it was not my first option as I originally wanted to enroll in INTEC's Korean program under the Engineering major (which the offer letter was already sent to me by the way) but I had to let it go as it was too costly and there was no way I could financially afford it. Half a million for the whole course? *GULP*

My campus! (photo not mine) Registration day is on 3rd of June which is around two weeks from now. Bought my plane ticket to KL which is costly since the registration date also falls on school holiday. I'll be flying on 2nd which is just a day before so adios KK hihihih. I have so many things to prepare for the registration day, documents, forms to verify and fill in, not to forget medical checkup. Before anything, of course these physical preparation must be made as it was all stated in the offer letter, but I first have to stop sleeping in at 4AM and only waking up at noon. For five (coming into six) months, my sleeping pattern is fucked up. I'll slowly work on that.

Honestly though, although I have always wanted to study far away from home, my feelings are mixed now that it is actually happening. I have always lived with my family and although I am not spoilt, it would feel really different not having them around for a year (and more to come). Of course it is a part of growing up but I don't know.. I am also worried that I won't be able to withstand the pressure of studying. At this level I have already expected it won't be as easy as high school, where the materials were all given and the students were all spoon-fed. I'll also be in a totally different environment, and I'm only hoping that I would fit in.

I don't know everything just yet, I guess I have to wait and see it myself. Till then, wait for my post about my experience here sometime soon!

When my writing mojo was at its peak..